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Confessions of a Synyster Mind: Part 4 of the A7X Series

Synyster Gates’ POV

Love sucks. Love sucks so fucking much, I’m serious, it does. I loved Matt first. He ended it with me when I started to become very attracted to Johnny. After I first rejected little Johnny, back in high school, he went and got this smokin’ hot girlfriend, Cassy. God, I hated that bitch. Every time I saw her and Johnny together, I wanted to kill her and rape him. Matt was furious when he found Johnny and I toe to toe in a fight over her one night. I wasn’t the slightest bit afraid of either Johnny or Matt, but rather was hurt by Johnny’s attitude when I told him that she had asked me to fuck her. I called her a whore to his face and he laid me out for it.

That was the first time that Matt fought to defend me, and I loved it. But, I hated that it caused Johnny to take off and ignore me for a long while. He dumped her, got arrested for kicking the ass of the guy she was cheating on him with, and called my dad since his mom was busy. I rode along and got to sit next to him in the back of the car, where I talked at him for the entire ride back to my house. I say that I talked ‘at’ him, because not only was he not talking to me, he was ignoring everything I said. That ended up hurting my feelings, a lot.

Once we were in the house, in my messy bedroom, I sat next to him on my bed and tried to comfort him. I tried to assure him that we would find some way to have fun, and he broke my fucking heart. He told me we weren’t friends and never have been, and that he loved me…a lot. I tried to let him down easy, since even though at the time I was madly in love with him, I was still Matt’s boyfriend, and a big part of me still loved the big lug. He ran off and if Matt hadn’t shown up on my doorstep at just that moment, not only would I have caught Johnny before he escaped, but I most likely would have ravished him.

All summer long, he ignored us. Not just me, but all of the guys, too. He even went and got a new girlfriend that he paraded all over town and rubbed it in my face that he was happy without me in his life. We kicked Justin out of the band after he claimed that Jimmy and Zacky had been having an orgy in Jimmy’s car one night, yet there was no proof and they had no damned clue what he was talking about. After summer was over, Jimmy and Zacky somehow managed to talk Johnny into being our new bassist, and he was perfect.

We taught him all our songs, created some new ones with him, then rocked out as a band of close friends. That last part stung for quite a while, since he never was around any of us unless it was to practice or to perform somewhere. Otherwise, he was with her. Kailie was her name and Johnny loved her with every ounce of his being, which cut me deep every time I saw them together. I tried to break them up one night, when I got him drunk, then had Zacky dare us to make out. We made out, and it fucking rocked! The next morning, Jimmy screamed so loud and panicked that all but Johnny woke up from it. When we ran to find him, we saw why.

Johnny’s girlfriend had killed herself. When we woke him up, I couldn’t keep the tears from falling. I tried to keep him from seeing, but he pushed past me. When he saw her like that, he broke. He had scooped her up in his arms and started rocking her to and fro while screaming so loud, it was if he was trying to reach her on the other side.

After that, Johnny changed again. Not for the better, either. He started ignoring everyone, especially me. He became very closed off and hated every sign of affection from any of us guys, but once again, especially me. That was when I started to get pissed off. Why was only I getting hated on so much? He obviously blamed me for it; I know that now.

I caught him crying all the time. I would watch him constantly for any sign that he was suicidal. Matt knew what I was up to; he was really worried about him as well. Of course, I found a way to make Johnny hate me even worse. I showed him my love one night after a particularly amazing show and he rejected me, and then broke down into uncontrolled sobs. Matt had found me on the floor with my arms wrapped around the small and sobbing man on my lap and had joined in on comforting him.

A week later, all hell broke loose. I tried to seduce Johnny and was kissing him when Matt walked in on us. Matt was furious. I was afraid for Johnny and afraid for my already overly abused ass. Matt had gotten to the point that for every time he caught me loving on Johnny, he fucked me without lube. Lately, it had been happening more and more frequently, which even caused me to fuck up during shows sometimes.

Matt started screaming and breaking things. When I whispered sweet nothings to calm him down, it didn’t work for the first time ever. Finally, I had no recourse. I blamed it on Johnny. I knew Matt wouldn’t hurt him, or so I thought. I was wrong. Matt screamed some of the most awful things to Johnny before then punching the poor guy in the balls…hard.

The way Johnny looked at me that night still kills me when I think about it, it was so cold and hate filled. That night marked the beginning of my downward spiral.

I started acting up to get Johnny’s attention, since he had become dead set on ignoring me at all times unless on stage or in an interview or something like that. It only seemed to make him hate me even more. Val came on tour and I noticed a distinct change in Matt’s behavior. He became more aware of his looks and behavior when she was around. I finally figured it out when I caught them fucking on the floor in the back of the bus, they had been so eager that they hadn’t even made it to the bunks themselves.

I ended it with Matt and started trying to regain Johnny’s love and attention. All that got me was more heartbreak as he openly insulted me and then laughed when I had started to cry. Zacky had held me and rocked me to sleep like I was a baby. Hell, even Matt got in on the ‘Syn and Johnny Love Brigade’ as Jimmy had anointed us. Once again, Johnny insulted me so viciously, that I finally gave up. I started bringing groupies around him, flaunting it in his face that I was over him and moving on. It was a lie that caught up to me one night.

I had picked up a biker and his girlfriend. I took them back to the hotel room that I was sharing with Johnny. I told Johnny that he would want to leave because I would be fucking the two all night. Johnny fucking flipped out! He punched the girl in the nose first before throwing her out of the room and into the hallway. The guy charged at Johnny, who side stepped before bringing the bedside phone crashing down on the big guy’s skull over and over again as I stood there gawping at the sight in front of me, my mouth opening and closing, but there was no sound as I tried to process the pure violence that I was witness to.

Matt had pulled the phone out of the raging and hard breathing Johnny’s hands before handing him over to Jimmy as he had pushed the guy out into the hall where two paramedics were waiting for him. Johnny started retching before he had finally puked up any and everything he had recently eaten or drank in the past 24 hours all over the expensive plush carpet. That was when Jimmy dropped the bomb, so to speak. That was not the first time that Johnny had lost it like that. Jimmy had actually witnessed the small man that I was in love with, kill another human being…a groupie whom had gone too far one night and insulted Johnny’s dead girlfriend.

Matt, Zacky and myself all collapsed on the big red leather sofa that was in the room and against the wall opposite the bed. As I was sitting there, Johnny came toward us while Jimmy explained the killing in a more graphic manner. Johnny straddled my lap and pressed his cold forehead against my own warm one as he looked into my eyes. I immediately wrapped my arms around him and brought him closer to my own body. All signs of drunkenness gone now, I was thinking only of how to turn this situation into a possible start of a relationship with the small trembling bassist on my lap sometime soon.

Jimmy had asked if Johnny intended to kill us since we knew about the hooker, whom Johnny had insisted was a groupie, but said that he wasn’t going to do anything to us. Zacky had pointed out there wasn’t really much of a difference when you really think about it, which we all agreed made sense. Then, Jimmy asked Johnny a very good question.

“So? Are you two gonna fuck after we leave or what? Because if you are, I need to know, so I can put my earplugs in!” this had caused Zacky to giggle so much that he had tears in his green eyes after he had finally managed to calm himself down.

Johnny said no, which really upset and confused me. I asked why not. I asked if he still hated me. He informed me that not only did he not hate me, but was thinking of my safety as he was capable of hurting me during any kind of invading intercourse because of how angry he still was. I had assured him that if he chose to hurt me during sex, I would still be all for it. But, he refused. I did get a hand job out of it, though. I also got a new boyfriend, whom I quite honestly loved to the point of obsession.

He and I were hot and heavy, but there was no real sex between us for a very long time, as I wanted to wait at first. But, as time went on, it began to become painfully obvious that Johnny was not willing to give or take, either. Even when I initiated it, it went nowhere further than a messy 69. Since Matt was once my lover and still my best friend other than Zacky, I naturally complained to him about my lack of a sex life. He then told Johnny about it very loudly one night after a particularly amazing show in Texas.

That night I got bent over a nasty and ugly couch and butt fucked so hard, I could barely move the rest of the night afterward. I never thought that it would be Johnny topping me. That night changed my views on that forever. He even gave me such filthy talk that I came multiple times for him. I had never done that for anyone else other than Matt before Johnny.

The down side to all of that was Matt. Matt was so hurt by watching Johnny take and gently dominate me the way he did when we were together, that he took off and stayed gone for almost two weeks. It felt like forever to me, though. I ended up treating poor Johnny like shit while Matt was gone because of all the guilt that I felt. When Matt got back, I spent almost all of my spare time with him. Not just to reassure him of my standing as his best friend, but we started screwing around with each other once again.

It became too much for me to handle finally. I started doing more coke to help ease my sexual urges and would sometimes even lash out at Johnny. The nights would pass with either me trying to love up on Johnny or trying to kill him for making me hurt my Matt in the first place. I know it was never his fault, but at the time I blamed it all on him like it was. Finally, it all came to a bloody and shattering halt one night when everything escalated and Matt and I took it too far.

I raped my boyfriend. I forced my hard and throbbing erection in my sobbing Johnny’s tight ass and took all of my rage, hatred and violent urges out on him…over and over again. Even worse of a betrayal was that I let my ex-boyfriend/ secret lover take him repeatedly as well. God, how Johnny screamed as we did that to him.

It still haunts me to this very day.

Matt and I had made out right in front of his red and puffy eyes after Matt’s cock was pulled limp from Johnny’s bleeding ass. After we had left, we got a call from the local hospital. We had hurt Johnny so badly that he was in the hospital and was currently in surgery for the damage that we had caused to his rectum.

I never moved as fast as I did then. Both Matt and I rushed to the hospital where Val laid into us pretty badly. Matt got a black eye and a split lip as she literally yanked his lip ring out and I got a broken nose and two black eyes as well as a broken wrist and two broken ribs courtesy of one Zacky fucking Vengeance.

I had to sneak into Johnny’s room after his surgery since there was actually an armed guard at his door with the express permission to beat the hell out of Matt and me if we tried to get into the room that held my small and injured boyfriend. Once I was finally passed the guard, Johnny fucking screamed loud and long with a high note wail mixed in it when he woke up to see me laying next to him and gently laying little kisses on his face and neck. The door was kicked inward and the big guard grabbed me by my hair and actually sucker punched me in the gut, yet Johnny refused to tell him that it was okay for me to be in there.

Instead, he cried as Val held and rocked him. I was on pins and needles for the two weeks he was in the hospital and Matt and I were terrified of how this would affect not only the band, but our friendships and relationships as well.

-Johnny broke up with me the day he was released from the hospital. Just like that, we were over. I destroyed my perfect relationship with a man who would have given me anything if I had but asked, instead of violating and humiliating him like I had done.

He got together with a small brunette named Lacey and I got with Michelle. We would try to outdo each other, but it would only lead to a hurt that pained me so deeply, some of the wounds felt as if they would never heal. It came to a head after one spectacular drunken night between us. Johnny and I had spent all night at my house fucking like wild animals. When he gone home, I had felt an empty hole form in my soul.

Later on the next day, I had gotten a phone call from Val telling me to get down to the hospital to pick Johnny up. Lacey had gone postal on the poor guy and only Val showing up had saved him from a certain death at the crazy bitch’s hands. When I got there, they led me back to the place he was in. He was still being bandaged as his hands were really fucked up from trying to keep her from stabbing him with a huge hunk of glass from the table she had tackled him through and thus shattered.

We got back together, this time with Matt’s complete support. I also began to notice a slight attraction between Matt and Jimmy, more so on Jimmy’s part, though. Even Val noticed, but unless Matt decided to do something about it, there was nothing she could say or do about it, so she stayed silent and loving. Johnny and I were more in love than ever before when the shit between Jimmy and Matt finally erupted in a fuck-fest that was just beautiful to behold. I even loaned my sweet lover to Matt, and watched in fascination as he took all of Jimmy’s cock in a hot deep throat that had my cum splashing all over my calloused hand.

We became the walking undead known as vampires a year later. Matt and I left the others for their own safety, but after four years away from Johnny, I could stand it no longer. I went back to claim what was mine, only to learn he almost died by his own hand. At the hospital, I turned him while Jimmy was turned by Matt. Lacey was Johnny’s first kill, a fact that makes me beam in joy to this day.

-Now, though…you’d never know that Johnny and I were once madly in love unless you were there for it all. We don’t sleep in the same bed anymore. We have affairs. Mine with women while his are with Zacky, Leana, Jimmy and Matt.

God, I wanted to kill Matt when I walked in on them for the first time!

Johnny had been kneeling on the floor with Matt fucking him from behind, Jimmy’s cock in his mouth and his own dick was buried in Zacky’s tight ass. I’ll be honest, I was more jealous than hurt at the time. Jealous that between the two of us, Zacky wanted Johnny topping him more than me! Why Johnny? Was I that bad of a lay the few times that Zacky and I got together? Or did Johnny do something different with them than with me? I was so furious that I almost missed the triumphant sparkle in Matt’s eyes as he dumped his cum in my man’s asshole.

The snarl that came out of my mouth had sparked a chain reaction in the fucking men. Zacky had sprayed the carpet with his seed and slumped the floor, exhausted. Jimmy has screamed and cum in Johnny’s mouth before falling on to his back on the bed. And Johnny…he had cum so hard, he actually passed out against Zacky’s sweat slicked back!

Matt had seen my fury, but he simply smiled all dimples and teeth, like he knew how hurt and confused I was by what I had just witnessed.

“What’cha thinking about, beautiful?” the slightly slurred purr next to my ear distracts me from my ruminations of things past.

“Just stuff, love. Why? You have something better for me to think about?” I am attentive in my sudden desirous attention of my newest lover’s interest.

“My cock sliding in and out of your wicked mouth.” I grin and drop to my knees in front of a drunken Zacky Vengeance.

As I slip my mouth around my secret lover’s cock, my eyes water a bit as I try to imagine it as Johnny’s. He’s gone and I have no clue where he and Matt are, but it worries me. He didn’t even tell me he was leaving, he just up and left. Zacky starts moaning like a whore as I work his dick and balls with both my mouth and hands.

“Fuck, Bri! That feels so fucking…Ahh!” Zacky screams, but not from pleasure and this makes me look up.

I scream at the sight that meets my eyes…

Killer Dolls: Chapter 8

Threesome in the Making…

Shade’s POV

Wow, my day is turning out to be awesome so far! My boyfriend of two weeks, Jimmy Sullivan is with me as we explore L.A. and he promised to introduce me to his good friend and band mate, Johnny Christ, who I adore. Of course, learning that Jimmy and Johnny are in a relationship with each other already, was a dream come true for me, since I love the idea of it.

“So, what’d you think of Tai?” Jimmy asks me as we walk down the street toward Johnny’s grandma’s house later in the day.

“She’s nice. I can see why she’s so adored by Syn. Why? Don’t you like her?” I ask, curious if it’s because he wants her or because she’s a vampire stripper.

“I see how she is, trust me on this. She’s a great girl, but Syn loves her, for real. She may like him, but you saw her in there. She’s not faithful, because to her, they’re not in a relationship at all. To him though, they are. He’s in love and believes they have a future, so it’s going to break his heart when he learns the truth. I’ll be there as he sobs his heart out, but she won’t be. Get now why I don’t really care much for Tai?” Jimmy’s explanation is solid and makes me feel kinda bad for Synyster, since no one likes to get his or her heart broken.

“I get it, yes. But, maybe he should learn it for himself. If you say something to him about it, he may not believe you.” I am quick to point this out, because something similar happened to me a few years back.

“Oh, trust me, I know better than to do that! I tried that when Shadows started to fall for Nikka, and he beat the shit out of me. I know better, now” Jimmy cringes at the thought, so I’m guessing he doesn’t want another beat down by a friend.

“Is Nikka the blonde one?” I ask as we reach our destination.

“Yes. Matt loves her more than anything, even Val, his current fiancé. He’s only staying with Val because Nikka is her friend and she told him to stay with her or else. Val knows about Nikka, but simply ignores it, since she knows it’ll never get serious between the two of them.” Jimmy explains as we walk to the door and he raises his fist to knock.

Before his fist hits the door though, it swings wide open. I jump away from Jimmy in shock as a cackling weirdo jumps out of the door and tackles Jimmy to the ground. Once the person is in the light though, I realize it is Johnny who’s kissing all over Jimmy’s face and not some random nutcase. Standing back, I have my hands behind my back as I sway on my feet.

“Is this our lady?” Johnny asks as he stands up and grabs me in a tight breath stealing embrace.

“Yes. ‘Tis Shade, indeed. Ain’t she lovely?” Jimmy hugs us both and I gasp as the rest of my breath is choked off.

“She’s fucking beautiful, is what she is. Let me just go and tell my Grammy that we’re leaving, alright?” Johnny runs back into the house after he lets me breathe again.

I can’t wait for this night to really begin…

Killer Dolls: Chapter 7

The Bakery of Sweet Delights and Shadeâ�¦

Ah! The smell of baking bread is just short of heavenly. As we enter the bakery, I can plainly hear loud and raucous laughter coming from the dining area. Nikka giggles as we sneak into the room and then jump out at Corey and Eric.

â�œBoo!â� we shout in tandem.

â�œWhat the hell?!â� Joey jumps about three feet into the air and yells.

As Nikka and I giggle, I spy Wednesday glaring at me. Aww, heâ�™s still mad at us for last night. Oh well, more Eric loves for me then.

â�œWhat are you two lovely little minxes giggling about over there?â� Daniâ�™s lilting British voice asks as he comes into view.

Nikka squeals and launches herself through the air at him, successfully tackling him to the floor. Covering his face with little kisses, she laughs loudly as he starts to tickle her. I watch in amusement as Joey stands up from his seat and stomps over to where theyâ�™re rolling around on the floor together. He reaches down and pulls her up and away from Dani, only to kiss her passionately.

â�œWhoa! Joeyâ�™s a jealous little fucker, ainâ�™t he?!â� I hear Ben say and Joey flips him off without taking his eyes away from my shocked friend.

â�œHuh. I hope youâ�™re not expecting the same treatment from either of usâ� Wednesday snarls and Eric agrees with him by nodding.

â�œI wouldnâ�™t dream of it. I understand completely that youâ�™re not interested in me in the slightest,â� I say hauntily, even though Iâ�™m hurt by their attitude toward me.

â�œWhat? No, thatâ�™s not it at all! I canâ�™t speak for Wednesday, but I really fucking like you. Just going on my gut, you may even be my mateâ� Eric assures me and hauls me close to him.

Whoa. Okay, now. Lover, oh yeah, definitely! Mate? Oh God, one of those would be bad! I like my life how it is, and if heâ�™s my mate, I know heâ�™ll try and make me change for him. I canâ�™t just change my lifestyle just for him. I mean, what about Nikka? Who would take care of her if I was gone? No one, thatâ�™s whoâ�¦

â�œDonâ�™t think like that, Tai. Iâ�™m not going to die without you. Maybe go a little crazy, but Iâ�™m already a nut, so whatâ�™s the harm?â� Nikka interrupts my trail of thoughts by intruding in my brain with her giggling words.

Gah! Even in a telepathic link, she canâ�™t pay attention to the task at hand!

â�œI can, too!â� Nikka suddenly shouts, making me and everyone else in the room jump in surprise.

â�œYou can, too what?â� Sid asks, very confused by the look on his face.

â�œUm. Never you mind. Tai! I want food! Feed me, or Iâ�™ll eat you!â� she says the last part rather suggestively.

â�œGet you own damn food, woman! We are talking over here!â� Wednesday yells as he comes up beside me and hugs me around my middle.

â�œOoh, me hungry, too!â� I yell in a childish voice and dart away from their grips.

I dash over to Nikka and we link arms. Skipping out of the dining area and into the buffet area, I giggle as Nikka wipes a bit of drool off of her chin.

â�œGeesh, Nik. Ya hungry or what?â� I smirk as she tries to smack me, but I duck out of her range.

â�œHa! Missed me. Missed me. Now, you gotta kiss me!â� I sing jokingly as I hop around the room excitedly.

â�œIâ�™d pay to see that, actuallyâ� Corey interjects as he and Wednesday follow Eric and Joey into the room.

I sigh in annoyance as Nikka grabs me and does just that. Her tongue is in my mouth and her hands are on my ass. What the hell? I may as well enjoy it. I wrap my arms around her and moan loudly as she squeezes my ass roughly.

â�œWowâ� Joey whispers dreamily.

We pull away and put our hands out.

â�œHuh?â� Corey questions.

â�œPay us, bitch. We kissed, so pay upâ� I encourage by wiggling my fingers around expectantly.

â�œHow about we just pay for your food?â� Eric suggests and we grin.

â�œOkies,â� we agree, knowing how huge our bill is going to be today.

â�œCoolâ� Wednesday tells us as he follows me from table to table and watching my every move.

I load my tray with lots of cakes, pies and cookies. As I fill a glass with sweet tea, I see a cookie fly past me and smack into Joeyâ�™s head. He looks all around to see who threw it, but no one is even paying any attention to him in the slightest, so he just shrugs it off and stuffs the cookie into his mouth. As he chomps it happily, I see Nikkaâ�™s arm fly forward, and another cookie is let loose. This time it pings him in his forehead and he looks around yet again, but once again is oblivious to Nikkaâ�™s giggles.

â�œWhat the hell? Who keeps throwing cookies at me? I can get my own food, sheeshâ� he sighs all irritated and turns back around after stuffing the second cookie into his mouth.

I canâ�™t take it any more. I burst out into giggles and he turns around just as she throws yet another cookie at him. His jaw drops and he stares gobsmacked at her as she falls to her knees in a giggle fit.

â�œIt was youâ� he snarls and stomps over to her, cookie in mouth after he speaks.

Goodness, he sure likes his cookies!

â�œHe does. Itâ�™s his favorite food. Oh, and by the way, if we are mates, I wonâ�™t try to pen you up or anything like that. Youâ�™ll be free to kill and what not, just no cheating on me. Oh, and fucking Wednesday is not constituted as cheating on me, so have at itâ� Eric tells me.

â�œHow did you,â� I go to say, but am cut off.

â�œI can read your thoughts. Just thought Iâ�™d let you know thatâ� Eric informs me with a wry grin.

I watch in confusion as Eric picks up my tray and drink and carries it out of the room. Wednesday takes a hold of my hand and leads me back onto the dining room and over to table by the window. We sit down and I sit down and start to eat my food. As I hum happily while chowing down, I watch the people outside walking around and enjoying their day out in the warm sun. My eyes widen when I see a woman enter the bakery hand in hand with Jimmy Sullivan from Avenged Sevenfold.

She was a beauty, thatâ�™s for sure. Standing at a modest 5â�™6â�, she was a curvy little thing. She had long dark brown hair with blood red tips. She also had dark red streaks all through her hair, right down to her mid back. She laughed at whatever Jimmy was saying to her and it was like bells tinkling. Ooh, a fairy in Los Angeles. Thatâ�™s new to me. They normally donâ�™t like bright lights and loud noises.

She turned around and I found myself looking into two dark green eyes. Like dark olives, her eyes are the same color as my favorite drink of absinthe. She looks young, but with fairies, looks can be deceiving.

They slowly walk over to our table and stop right in front of me.

â�œHey, arenâ�™t you the vampire stripper that Syn fucks?â� Jimmy points me out and asks the question rather rudely.

The girl smacks him in the stomach with her free hand and glares at him.

â�œIgnore him, he has no manners. My name is Shade. This is Jimmy,â� she introduces herself softly.

â�œIâ�™m Tai and heâ�™s right. I am the vampire stripper that Syn fucked,â� I tell her and her smile drops from her face before returning, brighter than the one before it.

Killer Dolls: Chapter 6!

The Morning Afterâ�¦

â�œNikka, wake upâ� I whisper into my best friendâ�™s ear.

â�œMpft,â� she grunts and I grin as I start to be annoying.

I poke her in her side for about five minutes or so before she rolls over on top of me and knocks us both to the floor. Itâ�™s Sunday, which means no work tonight or for the rest of the week. Since we bring in the most customers, we are able to make our own schedules. We work Thursdays, Fridays and Saturdays. The rest of the week, we get to ourselves.

â�œIs it Sunday yet? I need chocolate,â� Nikka wonders aloud as she and I try to get out from underneath the covers that are all askew and twisted around us.

Sundays are our sweet days, you see. Thereâ�™s a bakery down the road from our house that s only open on Sundays and Mondays. Other days, it delivers. Today is the day when we have our weekly assault of sugary goodness. Today we will go into the dining area of said bakery and just pig out. Since weâ�™re not human, gaining weight isnâ�™t a worry for us.

â�œIs our little demon friend going to be joining us?â� Nikka asks after we manage to get untangled from her bright purple sheets.

â�œDani? If I call him, he should be here in no time. Why?â� I ask hesitantly.

â�œBecause heâ�™s adorable and I wanna play kissies with him! Why else?! Gah! You irritate me sometimes, Tai. You really do,â� says Nikka with an exasperated sigh.

â�œWell, fine! How am I supposed to know why you want a demon around for anyways? I canâ�™t read your mind,â� I answer sarcastically.

She just looks at me like Iâ�™m stupid. Gah! Sheâ�™s right. I could read her mind if I tried hard enough, but itâ�™s 5 fucking A. M. Itâ�™s not like me to think at all this early in the morning, much less do so in a concentrating motion.

â�œWake up, doofus. We need to get ready, and you need to call for sexy â�˜lil Dani. Move it, Tai!â� Nikka taunts as she passes by me.

Her passing me equals bumping shoulders, so I shove her lightly and dive into the hallway before she can retaliate. I skip into the kitchen and hop up onto the pale pink counter. Grabbing the hot pink cell phone from the counter, I open it and scroll down to Daniâ�™s number. He is such a little pervert, which is why Nikka adores him so much, I think.

Ten minutes later, I hang up. She is going to be so pissed off. I sigh, agitated. As she comes skipping into the kitchen all sexy and smiling, I smile halfheartedly at her.

â�œIs he not coming?â� Nikka asks curiously.

â�œHe is, but only because heâ�™s already in town. Um. He wanted to know if he could bring along some friends and I said yes,â� I inform her and wait for the yelling with a cringe.

â�œSweetness. Did you tell him that he could?â� Nikka cheers while dancing in place for a few seconds.

Oh no! Her happy dance moment is about to be waay ruined!

â�œI did. Itâ�™s the boys of Murderdolls alongside Corey Taylor. Still happy?â� I question and watch as her facial expressions bounce from happy to shocked and then back to happy for some strange reason.

â�œYes! Very happy! Now, maybe I can play with Joey and Corey. Huh. I wonder if theyâ�™ll take me at the same time or if Iâ�™ll have to fuck them separate from each other. They seem to be the jealous and possessive types. Ooh! And you can take Wednesday and Eric. You can ride your boys hardcore like a vampire cowgirl or something like that!â� Nikka states enthusiastically.

I snort in laughter and fall off of the countertop. As I land on the floor, I grunt in pain before the laughter takes over once again. Oh dude! She hasnâ�™t cracked me up like that in a few weeks. I needed a good laugh, which she just gave me. As Iâ�™m trying to crawl up her legs, she kicks me away with her own laughter bubbling up and spilling forth from her crimson painted lips. I stick my tongue out and wiggle it around lewdly and she smacks my ass hard.

â�œYou bitch. That hurt, Nik. Really it did,â� I say with a grin as I finally stand up.

â�œYou had it coming, you little weirdo. Now, Iâ�™m ready to go. Is that what youâ�™re wearing?â� Nikka asks and gestures to my clothes.

I look down at myself and see why sheâ�™s curious. Iâ�™m wearing a long dress made of a rich and vibrant velvet of the deepest scarlet red. I look down at my feet, which are sporting red leather thigh high boots.

â�œYep. Is that what youâ�™re really wearing?â� I ask snidely as I take in her outfit for the day.

Sheâ�™s decked out in a long dress that is so thin, the slightest wind would chill her if she were mortal. It was knee length and she was wearing a pair of black and silver knee high boots to match it. The dress was of sumptuous purple silk with black and silver stars cut out in a different fabric all over the dress. I can even see her peek a boo bra under it due to the large cut out space where her massive chest is. At least my dress covers everything. Hers just about reveals everything.

â�œYes. I like to dress sexy. You know that,â� Nikka says with a wicked smile.

â�œWell then. Since weâ�™re both ready, letâ�™s grab our bags and goâ� I announce rather snootily.

We grab our purses and leave the house. I lock the door behind us and we make our skipping way down the road. We ignore the odd looks we get from our nosy and annoying neighbors as we pass. After all, they hate us and vice versa.

Hell, when we first moved in, they all started to bother us with pamphlets on how being together like we were, or like they thought we were, was a sin. When I hissed and revealed my fangs, they shut up real quick. Now, they stay silent and we donâ�™t kill them. Everybody wins!

â�œHello, girls! How are you two on this wonderful Sunday morning?â� Mrs. Culver yells as she waves cheerily at us.

Mrs. Culver. She is the only neighbor we donâ�™t hate. In fact, we actually help her on the weekdays when she is home. She is seventy-five years old and is so sweet and cheery, itâ�™s impossible to not like her. Hell, we killed a guy for pushing her down in the supermarket one day. She doesnâ�™t know what we are, but it doesnâ�™t matter to us or to her. We love her like she was family and we take care of our own.

â�œHi, Mrs. Culver,â� we say in unison as we stop next to her fence.

Her grandson is watching us carefully. He knows what we are, because heâ�™s the same, just a younger one. Johnny Christ is his stage name. He comes to visit from Huntington Beach every other week unless heâ�™s on tour. He knows about us because of Shadows and Synyster. They can never keep their mouths shut. Always bragging about fucking us to their buddies. Hell, give me Zacky and Iâ�™d violate him in so many ways, that werewolf would never walk right again. Yes, werewolf. Normally, I prefer men not dogs, but ehâ�¦for him, Iâ�™d make one hell of an exception. Anyways.

â�œYou girls know better. My name is Annie. Say it with me, Annie,â� she coaxes and we say it with her yet again.

â�œOh, Johnny. Come and meet Nikka and Tai. Arenâ�™t they so lovely? And just sweet as the dickens,â� she coos and pinches our cheeks much to our humiliation.

â�œTheyâ�™re very pretty, Grammie. Why donâ�™t we go inside and let them be on their way? They look like theyâ�™re off on an adventure,â� Johnny suggests and begins to lead her back into her little rose red brick house.

â�œThatâ�™s alright. Annie? Why donâ�™t we bring you and Johnny back some delicious sweets? We are meeting some friends there, but shouldnâ�™t be gone any longer than we normally are on Sundays,â� Nikka offers and Annieâ�™s face positively lights up at the offer of free treats.

â�œYes, we would love it. Wouldnâ�™t we, Johnny?â� Annie smiles and asks her grandson.

â�œThatâ�™s very kind of you two ladies. Thank youâ� Johnny waves as we head back on our way, with a forced smile.

As we dashed the rest of the way there, my long raven hair flew around wildly. My bright blue eyes were shining with a joy I havenâ�™t felt in a very long time. I am really excited to see Wednesday and Eric again. But, especially Eric, for some odd reason. Is it love? Or, just a really strong sexual connection? Only time will tellâ�¦

Killer Dolls: Chapter 5!

DEADLY DESIRES

Back at our house, it looks like Iâ�™m finally about to get even with Keri and Kendra. Little bitches were on our porch and waiting for us. Now, theyâ�™re in the basement.

â�œLet us go right now! Iâ�™m going to the cops after this. Bitchâ� Keri yells.

I practically collapse from the giggles at that statement.

â�œBitch, get real. You ainâ�™t leaving this basement alive. No one who has ever ended up down here in the position youâ�™re in, ever gets outâ� Syn snarls and she starts to wail.

I smile and pick up the largest knife from the large metal table next to the couch. Matt is sitting down on the couch next to Syn as they watch the scene playing out before them. I walk over to where Kendra is hanging by her chained hands from the ceiling. She screams and tries to wiggle away as I lay the edge of the blade against her skin gently. Running it up and down across her skin so very lightly, I smirk as she starts to relax. Without a word, I plunge the blade into her side and twist it.

â�œAhhâ� Kendra screams as her blood begins to flow down her body from the gaping wound.

â�œAwesomeâ� Tai whisper shouts next to Keri as she begins the process of skinning her alive.

The filleting blade she is using is the one that I ordered off of the Internet for $80.00 from a cooking site. Itâ�™s her favorite tool for our fun nights. My feet are getting soaked from all of the lovely crimson blood seeping from Kendraâ�™s dying body. I know I had the thought of chopping her up, but I am so very horny and tired from tonightâ�™s events, that I just wanna kill her and get it over with. The sooner she bleeds out and into the little metal tub under her, the sooner I can get laid and bathed before sleep time.

â�œAww! Synnie, she diedâ� Tai whines with a sad pout and pokes Keriâ�™s now warm corpse.

â�œShe dead yet, baby?â� Matt asks as he comes to stand behind me.

I nod and relax into his cool embrace. He smiles before letting me go and I walk up the stairs behind Tai. They hate it when we see them eat. I have to admit, it makes me gag. Seeing someone die is no big deal for Tai and I. However, seeing two men eat the bodies, that is just too disgusting. I set the little metal tub on the kitchen counter and Tai does the same with hers.

â�œIâ�™ll grab the jugs, you get the funnelsâ� Tai says and I go to the cupboard above the sink.

Once the funnel is out, I grab a medium sized glass and dip it into the still warm blood. I gulp it down and go back for another. I havenâ�™t fed in almost a week, and my hunger was starting to take its toll on me. After the second glass, Iâ�™m feeling happier and more relaxed than before. Tai makes it back with four large glass jugs. She sees the blood on my lips and grins as she hands me the jugs and takes the empty glass from me.

â�œMmm, so damn yummyâ� Tai announces with a grin after finishing her fourth glass of blood.

The rest of the blood was already in the jugs and in the refrigerator. We only ended up with two full jugs and one halfway filled, since we had to drink so much to fill ourselves up. Tai lets out this huge burp suddenly and I wrinkle my nose in disgust. She is so gross sometimes.

â�œYou two done yet, babe?â� Syn asks Tai as they come up the basement stairs and into the kitchen.

â�œYep. Are you naked already?â� Tai inquires him with a grin.

â�œWe donâ�™t want blood all over our nice clothes. Unlike you two, we donâ�™t have clothes hereâ� Matt answers for the both of them.

I turn around and my jaw drops like it always does when I see him in the nude. I just gape at him as he walks over to me. Once he notices my gaze though, the walk becomes a strut. Once he reaches me, he yanks me close to him and kisses me hungrily. I moan as he grabs my ass. He lifts me in the air and I wrap my legs around his thick and muscular waist.

â�œIâ�™m gonna fuck you so hard, you wonâ�™t walk right for a fucking week. Youâ�™ll need a vacation from work after Iâ�™m done with you, Nikka. Iâ�™m gonna make you scream while I ravage your body and make you beg me for more. You want that, donâ�™t you bitch?â� Matt growls out aggressively as he carries me up the stairs and into mine, and Taiâ�™s shared bedroom.

My night with him is finally ending the way I wanted it to. He all but ran up the stairs. Since I wasnâ�™t wearing much and he was already naked, it only took a minute before we were both naked and facing each other. To get undressed, he had put me down. Now, he is coming back to me after pulling the curtain that separates my side of the room from Taiâ�™s. He presses me against the wall, raising my legs so that they once again encircle his waist.

â�œI need you so fucking much, Nikkaâ� Matt whispers huskily.

With his two strong hands, he shifts my buttocks and slowly, teasingly, rubs my wet pussy against his hot, stunningly erect cock. His mouth finds mine and we kiss each other deeply, his lip ring cold in contrast to our hot breath, as we devour each otherâ�™s mouths. As he plunges his throbbing length into my slick folds, I cannot control my screams of ecstasy. My nails turn into talons as I rake them down his muscular back. My fangs come out and I sink them into his neck as he slams in and out of me furiously. He yelps when I bite him, but as I suck on the wound, he starts to moan loudly.

I feel my first climax coming on and I shudder as I rip my teeth out of him and scream loudly as I hit the apex. He grins wickedly before pulling out of me and tossing me away from him. I fall to the floor and stay there out of shock. What the fuck is with that? Angry, I go to stand up, only to be shoved back to my hands and knees. Matt drops down next to me and positions himself behind me. He snaps his hips and reburies his dick inside of me, from behind this time. I screech and claw at the floor in a mix of agony and bone biting pleasure as he fucks me brutally.

â�œLike that, bitch?â� he asks in a rush as he starts to thrust wilder and more frantically than before.

Heâ�™s close, I can tell as his movements increase in speed and roughness. As he releases into me a few minutes later, my name is expelled from his plump lips with a guttural growl. He collapses practically on top of me and I whimper in pain. He immediately rolls off of me and his penis slips out of my exhausted body. I yawn as he picks me up. After he tosses me on to the bed, I snuggle into my covers and am asleep in just a few seconds. Before I fall asleep completely, I hear him whispering to someone before he slips into bed next to me. His body is big and warm, so I cuddle up next to him before sleeping.

Killer Dolls: Chapter 4!

MOVIES, MURDERDOLLS, MAYHEMâ�¦

Ah. The Grande Theatre isnâ�™t very busy tonight, which Iâ�™m thankful for. The only thing that is ruining my night right now, is Joey and Corey. It seems that everywhere I look, there they are! Shadows and I are sitting in the darkened theater, but I can feel a heated gaze on my back. Wondering who was staring at me, I had earlier turned around and seen Joey and Corey as well as the rest of them. They were sitting two rows behind us. Joey and Corey were focusing their gaze on me, while Tai had Eric and Wednesdayâ�™s full attention on her and Syn.

â�œBaby. Just ignore them. Theyâ�™re trying to take you from me, and I wonâ�™t have it. Youâ�™re mine for tonight, remember?â� Shadows instructs as he starts to gently kiss my neck.

â�œBut, Shaâ�, I try to say, but he cuts me off.

â�œCall me Matt, Nik. And shut up, please. Do something that doesnâ�™t involve talking, pleaseâ�, Matt says.

So, I do. Taking my purse and placing it in my seat, I carefully kneel in front of Matt. I look up into his beautiful hazel eyes as my nimble fingers work his buttons loose and his zipper down. His eyes stay on mine as I reach into his pants and pull his semi hard cock out. Determined to not only make his magnificent cock as hard as it can get, but also make Joey and Corey writhe in nervous fascination, I lick my lips before wrapping them around the head of his massive cock.

I suck his cock head so hard, my cheeks hollow. As I bob my head, Mattâ�™s hands find their way into my short blonde hair, tugging painfully. I swallow around him, and feel him grow painfully larger. He moans loudly and I feel it start to throb. I hear another moan, but know it isnâ�™t Mattâ�™s voice moaning. Itâ�™s Tai and I can only imagine how hard Syn is fucking her right now, since I canâ�™t see it quite clearly.

â�œFuck, Nikka. Baby, Iâ�™m so fucking horny. Bend over the seat that way youâ�™re facing those guys. I want them to see your face when we cum as oneâ�, Matt whispers gruffly.

I give him a few small licks in farewell before standing up and doing as Iâ�™m told. I look over and see that Syn has Tai bent over in much the same position as I am now being put in. She seems to be enjoying it, and his cock isnâ�™t quite as big or thick as Mattâ�™s is. In my view, I can see all the guys that are behind us. Joey is watching me closely with a perverted grin on his pale face. Corey just looks pissed off. Eric and Wednesday are glaring daggers at Syn as he pumps in and out of Tai.

â�œThey want you, baby. But, youâ�™re mine, arenâ�™t you?â� Matt whispers as he yanks my tiny, white thong off, ripping it in the process.

â�œYes, they want me. Ugh, but Iâ�™m yoursâ�, I moan as he pistons his hips, his hands bruising my hips painfully.

â�œSay it louder, slut. Let them hear it, bitchâ�, he growls out.

â�œIâ�™m yoursâ�, I practically yell as his teeth sink into my creamy shoulder as he releases into me.

I whimper as he roughly pushes two fingers into my pussy while his cock is still in me. I wonâ�™t lie, it hurts like hell. But, it wonâ�™t in a few more strokes of my clit with his circling thumb. I throw my head back and climax harder than I ever have before. Matt pulls out of me and smacks my ass hard before moving away to pull his pants back up and re-button and zip them. Once thatâ�™s done, he sits back down in his chair like nothing happened. Iâ�™m a little slower in coming down from the high of a good, hard fuck. Dizzy, I shake my head to wake myself up again.

â�œI think somethingâ�™s wrongâ�, I hear someone whisper as my eyes roll into the back of my head and I pass out.

When I come to, Iâ�™m in the lobby of the theater. People are surrounding me and my head is in a crying Taiâ�™s lap. Matt and Syn are nowhere that I can see. I sit up slowly and continue to look around.

â�œIf youâ�™re looking for Syn and Shadows, they left. Shadows is down at the police station and Syn is down there, trying to keep them from booking himâ�, Tai says with an angry look on her face.

â�œWhat the fuck happened? Why was Matt arrested?â� I ask in horror.

â�œYou passed out from the ecstasy that Matt and Syn drugged our drinks with at dinner earlier. He got arrested because Chuckles and Midget boy called the cops and said that Shads raped you in the theaterâ�, she snarls in the direction of Corey and Joey.

â�œWhat the hell?!â� I say as I stand up.

Iâ�™m a bit wobbly from the drug, itâ�™s obvious to see. However, Iâ�™m pissed!

â�œWHAT THE FUCK?! WHAT IS YOUR GODDAMNED PROBLEM?! YOU HAVE MADE MY FUN NIGHT A LIVING HELL! WHY? BECAUSE I BEAT THOSE WHORES UP? YOU SHOULD BE FUCKING HAPPY THAT I DID! KENDRA HAS HEPATITUS AND KERI HAS CRABS! I SAVED YOU FROM THAT, AND YOU SHIT ON ME?!â� I scream with all the fury that is boiling deep within my blood at the two of them.

Theyâ�™re shocked, thatâ�™s plain to see. Hell, I think I even managed to shock Tai with my outburst. And, she lives with me!

â�œHE HURT YOU! I SAW THE PAIN ON YOUR FACE WHILE HE TOOK YOU! I HEARD YOU WHIMPER IN PAIN! IT MADE ME MAD, SO I HELPED YOU AWAY FROM HIM! Iâ�™M JUST SAD THAT YOU PASSED OUT BEFORE I GOT TO YOU!â� Corey screams back at me, veins popping out in his thick neck.

Wow. Wasnâ�™t expecting that.

â�œEnough. We need to go down there and explain. Before we lose their friendship foreverâ�, Tai whispers the last part into my ear.

â�œLetâ�™s goâ�, I answer back and she helps me out of the building.

I stop in my tracks as I remember my purse.

â�œItâ�™s right here, Nikâ�, Tai says and hands me my tiny white clutch purse.

A steady thumping of footprints interrupts our escape. A hand grabs a hold of my arm and Iâ�™m spun around and at the same time slammed against a red van. A hard dick is pressed against me and teeth sink into my already sore and marked shoulder. The hand that comes to a rest on my stomach is big, but gentle. I look up and over my shoulder to see the beautiful hazel eyes of M. Shadows.

â�œIâ�™m so sorry for the E in your drink, baby. I just wanted to help you loosen up a bit more than usual since those guys were making you so tenseâ�, Matt whispers and I see one lone, crystalline tear track down his cheek.

Wow. Heâ�™s crying for hurting me. God, way to make me feel awful. Joey and the others come up to us and I watch as they watch me carefully.

â�œItâ�™s fine, Matt. No harm done, well not real harm, anyways. No more drugs though, okay? I may drink and whore around with you two, but Iâ�™ve never done drugs, and I want to keep it that wayâ�, I lay down my law and he nods before practically squeezing the life out of me in a huge bear hug.

â�œWhat the hell? Thatâ�™s all? He fucking drugged you! He hurt you! What is your deal, woman?!â� Wednesday snarls angrily.

â�œWhat do you care? You had your chance, but you all decided we arenâ�™t pretty enough for your royal pain in our asses self. Leave it aloneâ�, says Tai, with sadness on her beautiful face.

I see her jab hit home and they all wince. A sob escapes her throat and she clings to Syn.

â�œLetâ�™s get you two homeâ�, Syn whispers and picks her up.

As Syn carries her to the limo, I follow, still wrapped in Mattâ�™s muscled arms. I know why sheâ�™s crying. I would be crying as well, but right now, someone needs to be the strong one. And right now, that someone is me.

â�œYou will get your turn to love us one dayâ�, I whisper to Joey as I pass by.

I hope my words are understood by them, if they were even heard.

Killer Dolls: Chapter 3

FUN, FRIENDS AND FLIRTINGâ�¦

I smile and we make our way downstairs where we are met with quite the surprise. M. Shadows and Synyster Gates are downstairs and waiting for us.

â�œI called them while you were in La La land. We need to fuck and so do they. Which one do you want tonight?â� she asks with a wicked grin.

â�œShadowsâ� I say without hesitation.

He comes toward me with a predatory look on his face. His smile widens at my answering look of heated lust, and those dimples of his make themselves known. He may be a hardcore rocker, but he knows how to take care of meâ�¦in all ways.

â�œSyn, it looks like Iâ�™m yours for tonight,â� Tai says with a sexual overtone that makes me laugh throatily.

â�œJust the way I like it. No offence to you, Nikka. I just prefer Tai in and out of bed,â� Syn says with a small smile and a wink my way that makes Shadows growl playfully at him.

â�œShall we go?â� I ask as Shadows wraps his huge, muscular and tattooed arms around my slender waist.

â�œSo, where to first?â� Syn asks us as we get into the black limo waiting at the curb for us.

â�œIâ�™m sooooo hungry! Feed me, Synnie Winnieâ� Tai says in a long and annoying whine that even makes me wince to hear it.

â�œVincenteâ�™s it is thenâ� Shadows says as Syn leans forward to tell the driver where weâ�™re going.

My body tenses as Shadows moves me to where Iâ�™m laying on the seat with my legs open to Syn. Before I can ask what is going on though, Syn is kneeling between my spread legs as Shadows does the same thing to Tai. My breath hitches in my throat as Synâ�™s long fingers inch into my tiny white panties and slide into my wet slit. My hips buck as his other hand pulls my panties to the side as his mouth latches on to my now swollen clit. I hear Tai moan and can only imagine what Shadows is doing to her as I canâ�™t move my head to see without making Syn stop what heâ�™s doing, which I donâ�™t want to do.

â�œSyyynâ� I moan loudly as he starts to lick and finger my slit rougher than before.

â�œScream my name, babyâ� I hear Shadows growl out to Tai.

Hearing his gruff command to her gets me even hotter and now Iâ�™m writhing around on the leather seat. I scream Synâ�™s name as I cum all over his face and fingers. Soon after I climax, Tai screams Shadowsâ�™ name as she cums as well. I struggle to sit up and Syn helps me up. Sitting back down by Tai, Syn licks his fingers clean and she licks his face clean for him. Shadows sits by me and licks my pussy clean quickly, knowing weâ�™re close to the restaurant by now.

â�œI know I said I prefer Tai, but Shadows was curious at what she tasted like and vise versa. I still prefer Taiâ�™s taste over yours. Sorry, Nikkaâ� Syn whispers the last part.

â�œThatâ�™s fine. I think she tastes better than I do, too. So no worriesâ� I say and watch both of the guyâ�™s faces go slack with shock at my statement.

â�œW-What?â� Syn asks me stuttering in shock.

â�œDid I stutter, boy? Iâ�™ve licked that pussy more than you have, Iâ�™ll bet.â� I say with a smirk.

â�œFuck me, thatâ�™s hotâ� Shadows says and Syn nods enthusiastically.

The limo comes to a stop and we all get out. On our way in, I see a familiar blonde, but shrug it off. As weâ�™re being seated, I realize who the blonde I thought I saw was. Kendra and Keri are here with the boys of Slipknot and Murderdolls. Our table is close to where theyâ�™re all partying. Tai and I smirk as they all look up as we pass them. Not only do their eyes pop wide open, but their jaws drop as well. Joey and Corey both gape at me as I smile at Shadows and tuck myself into the booth as close to him as I can get without sitting on his lap. Wednesday and Eric have their turn to gape when Tai does the same with Syn.

â�œAre you aware those guys are fucking staring at you two?! Do I need to fuck someone up?â� Shadows growls out angrily.

â�œThey were at SEXXXI earlier tonight. Picked the two skanks there over us. Probably because they wouldnâ�™t be getting pussy from us as easily as they can from those two whoresâ� Tai says loud enough for the people at the next table to hear her.

I know they did, too. All conversations over at their table stopped and all eyes turned toward us. I watch with a hooded gaze as Kendra and Keri get up and come over to us. Oh, they need to back off right the fuck now. If not, I will beat the shit out of them both.

â�œFuck you, you whore! Youâ�™re the skank here, not us. Youâ�™re both fucking ugly, which is why they want us and not you!â� Kendra snarls at Tai.

Before Shadows can stop me, Iâ�™m out of the booth and up in her face.

â�œWalk youâ�™re fat and ugly ass back over there, while you still can,â� I snap at her and push her back slightly.

She really is stupid though. She gets right back up in my face and shoves me, hard. Mistake.

â�œOh, you done fucked up, whore!â� Tai taunts just as my hand flashes out and catches Kendra by surprise.

She topples backwards and I kick her in her ribs before tackling Keri. She and I fall to the floor and I slam both hands down on to her face with brutal force. My interlocked hands instantly break her nose and shatter her jaw upon impact. I stand up and roundhouse kick Kendra just as she tries to charge at me from behind. She flies through the air and smacks into the wall behind her. She doesnâ�™t get up again. Neither of them do, not until security help them back to their table.

â�œHoly Fuck!â� Acey exclaims loudly, making me laugh.

I head back to my table and tuck myself back up against Shadows. He smiles and hugs me close as he starts to nibble on my neck. I moan loudly as I become aware that both Joey and Corey are watching us closely.

â�œNo fucking until I get something to eat!â� Tai tells Syn loudly.

The waiter comes and I order a huge plate of spaghetti with some red wine. Tai gets a huge steak, with baby carrots and mashed potatoes, as well as a beer. Syn gets the same as Tai. Shadows orders a steak, rare, no sides and a beer. For appetizers, we get mozzarella balls and stuffed mushrooms.

A song comes over the speakers that makes me grin wickedly. Lady Venom by Swollen Members. As the bass pulses, I stand up and get on top of the table next to ours. The table is right between us and them. I start to sway sensuously and wind my arms around above my head. My body undulates as I move to the beat of the music. Joey whispers something to Corey and Corey grunts. I watch as Joey gets up from the table and sits down at the table Iâ�™m dancing on. From his seat, he has a very good vantage point to see my panties.

â�œAll whiteâ� he whispers quietly to himself.

I slide down sensuously to kneel in front of him and lick his cheek. He moans and I step away and jump off of the table and Tai and I grind up on each other as the song comes to an end. I hear Syn and Shadows curse as well as the others as we kiss softly before parting. We smile as we sit back to our dates. Our dinner arrives as I watch Joey and Corey in a heated discussion with Wednesday and Eric. I can only guess that it is about them not choosing us earlier when they had the chance.

We eat and Tai and I get up to dance some more as more heavy music comes on through the stereo. I feel a warm body push against mine from behind and turn to face my dance partner. Itâ�™s Joey and I watch as Eric grinds up on Tai. As much as I want this, I want Shadows more tonight since they rejected me earlier. I move away from Joey and watch as Tai moves away from Eric. We leave them on the dance floor without a backwards glance and I see Wednesday and Corey watch as we sidle up to Shadows and Syn and start to grind on each other as they grind on us.

Shadows reaches up and grips my short blonde hair as he yanks my head back. I whimper as he grinds his hard cock up against my backside. My dark eyes slide closed as I moan loudly. Iâ�™m thinking we may not make it to the movies tonight, after all. I hear Syn moan and watch Tai lead him to the bathrooms. What a great idea. I look up at Shadows as he starts to run his hand that isnâ�™t in my hair, all over my lithe body as we move together. Our dancing becomes even more heated as he slides his hand under my dress and almost fingers me right there and then. Before he can though, I move away and start to rock out as â�œBad Thingsâ� from Wednesday 13 comes on. Just as the it does, Tai and Syn make their grinning and wobbly way back to Shadows and I.

â�œHave a good fuck?â� I ask slyly.

â�œFuck yes!â� Syn answers for the both of them and Tai nods happily with a goofy smile on her face.

I nod with a grin to show my happiness for them as we dance to one last song while the guys go to pay up at the front desk. I smile as I see Joey glare at me as Corey makes his way to me.

â�œWhatâ�™s the fucking deal? You so jealous of us picking them over you that you nearly kill them? Theyâ�™re too hurt to fuck us now. And you two are fucking teasing us. I want you now, are you fucking happy? Joey wants you so bad, heâ�™s in the menâ�™s room, jacking off. What more do you fucking want from us?â� Corey admits as he sucks on my neck and his rough hands wander my shaking body.

A throat clears and my eyes snap open to see that Shadows and Syn are back and waiting for us to finish up. I move away from Corey reluctantly. I grab my purse from Shadows and Tai grabs hers from Syn before we leave the restaurant.

KILLER DOLLS: CHAPTER 2

PLOTTING AND THE PASTâ�¦

In the hour it takes us to get back to our house at the edge of town, I have calmed down somewhat. Keri and Kendra can have their fun tonight, because in a few days, theyâ�™ll be dead. Thatâ�™s right, I said dead.

â�œSo, how should be punish the Kâ�™s? I think slowly skinning them alive is the best way to go. A nice, slow death is what they deserve for getting in our way like they did tonight. What do you think, Nik?â� Tai asks me with a twisted grin as we make our way into our bathroom.

â�œIâ�™m thinking brutal knife to the gut, then watch as they cry and bleed to death. Or we can do it both ways? One dies my way and one dies yours?â� I answer back with a grin that matches hers perfectly.

â�œThat is the best idea ever!â� Tai says as we strip off our dresses and panties.

The shower is big, so we just share. As we step under the hot spray, I groan as a pain makes itself known to me. Before it can get any worse though, Taiâ�™s hands are rubbing and kneading the flesh of my back and shoulders. I moan as the pain subsides completely at her magic fingers.

â�œBetter?â� Tai asks as her fingers continue to move all over my naked flesh.

The guttural moan I let out seems to satisfy her and she starts to wash herself as I do the same. Once weâ�™re clean and smelling of our matching mango body wash, we towel off and head to our room. Our bedroom is huge. With two beds on opposite sides of the room, it has a huge closet where all of our clothes are situated. My half of the room is painted silver and blue. Taiâ�™s half is black and purple. Weâ�™re so alike, so sharing this big house is no problem at all. Just like how weâ�™ve always shared everything. Hell, our moms were this way as well, which is where we get it from.

See, we grew up together in a little run down apartment where our moms hooked on the street just to take care of us and each other. My mom died first. Stabbed to death by a man who tried to rape Taiâ�™s mom. She died saving her best friend, something I would do in a heartbeat. I never blamed her for it. I was in awe of what she did. Even at the funeral. Taiâ�™s mom, Lori kept apologizing to me. She blamed herself. I made sure though that she knew that I never for even a second blamed her. I still donâ�™t.

Loriâ�™s death hit us both hard when we were sixteen. We had come home to the shitty apartment to find the door wide open. Knowing something bad had happened to Lori, I sent Tai next door to call the cops. When I went into the apartment, I immediately gagged at what I saw on the couch. Lori was naked and lay on her back with her legs wide open. Her head was barely attached to her shoulders and her mouth was open in a silent scream. When Tai had tried to enter the room, I had simply forced her back out into the hallway. Holding her against me, I told her that her mom was dead. That we were on our own from now on. I refused to let her see Lori like that.

Going into the apartment alone, I looked through all of our stuff. Packing two bags quickly, I then found all of our hiding places for our money and theirs. Once I found it all, I quickly counted it out. We had $3,000 total. I divided it into two even piles, one for me and one for Tai. Grabbing our makeup bags, and purses, I then grabbed our bags and rushed out of the apartment and into Taiâ�™s arms. We ran out of the building and into the night. Never did we have to hook on the streets. For almost a year we managed to live off of the money we started our new lives with.

Once the money ran out, I made a life changing decision. I told Tai to stay home and make a list of everything we needed, both food wise and other supplies wise. I left dressed in a small black dress. No purse or shoes, as I knew I had to be quick about what I was about to do. I went to the richest part of town and walked up to the biggest house there was. I knew that the man who lived here was old and mean. He was hated by everyone in town, so if he went missing, no one would know for quite a while. I also knew that he had a weakness for pretty, young girls.

I fit the bill perfectly, I guess you could say. I went straight up to the front door and knocked on it. He answered after a few minutes and I almost puked at the way he was looking at me. He invited me in and closed the door behind me. He motioned for me to follow him, which I quickly did. As we sat in the cozy den, we sat close to each other. He asked me to sit on his lap, which I did after a momentâ�™s hesitation.

He started fondling me and asked if I wanted to go upstairs with him. Swallowing my bile, I agree enthusiastically. Once in his bedroom, he becomes less aggressive. I push him onto his knees as I drop my dress. I dance sexily for him like I had once seen my mom do for a customer. As he pled for me to fuck him, I tackled him backwards. Not for sexual reasons though as he found out. I bit down on his jugular vein in his throat as I twisted his neck and spine painfully. Once he passed out from blood loss, I went to his big bed and grabbed a big, fluffy and white pillow.

I had straddled him again and pressed the pillow to his face. I held it there until he stopped twitching. I held it there until his breath completely left his disgusting, perverted, ugly old body. Once I was sure he was dead, I snapped his neck with a quick and brutal moveâ�¦just to be absolutely sure he was dead. I covered his body with a sheet and slowly dragged him into the big bathroom. Painstakingly, I got him into the tub before going downstairs to the massive kitchen. Once I had entered the room though, I got the shock of a lifetime. Tai was there at the kitchen table eating a bologna sandwich with a huge meat cleaver next to her.

â�œGod. Are you stupid or what? Did you think I wouldnâ�™t follow you and help with whatever you had planned to help us out of our problems? Now, come on. We need to cut the fucker up and throw his dead, chopped up body into the basement. After we rob this place, weâ�™ll burn it the fuck down. Now, letâ�™s do this shitâ�, Tai snarled at me after her sandwich was gone.

That night, we had done just that. Our total score after pawning all the jewelry, clothes and whatnot was over $300,000. We burned the place down and skipped town shortly after that. Now, weâ�™re here in Los Angeles, living out our wildest dreams and fantasies, having the time of our lives. Sure, every now and again, we have to kill someone, like the Kâ�™s. People who get in the way of our happiness. Louie knows what we are and could care less as long as we donâ�™t get caught or hurt him or his boyfriend. Yes, boyfriend. Thatâ�™s why I allow Louie to touch me, because he doesnâ�™t man anything by it. He is 100% gay, and Tai and I adore him and Georgie.

â�œHey, Nikka. Get your pretty little head out of your ass and pick some clothes out. Iâ�™m hungry, bored, horny and sober. Not a good combination for either of usâ�, Tai snaps me out of my reverie.

â�œSorry, sweetieâ�, I say with a small smile as she sticks her tongue out at me.

I stand next to her and pick out a beautiful dress. My favorite dress, to be exact. Itâ�™s a knee length, white halter style dress with small, white pearl buttons up the back of it. Itâ�™s a swishy, fun dress and is made of the finest silk. I match it with a small white thong and a strapless white bra. Any other girl could wear a dress like this without a bra, but not Tai or myself. With our 26 D size breasts, we would have saggy titties for sure if we went braless except for when weâ�™re working or sleeping. Or of course, fucking.

Bending down, I slip my strapless white heels on and stand up to put my panties and bra on. Once those are on, I slip into the dress and shiver as the cold silk touches my warm skin. I turn around and shiver again as Taiâ�™s hands brush against my tattooed back as she fastens the twenty small buttons back there.

â�œThank youâ�, I whisper as she kisses my neck softly before moving away to find her own outfit for the night.

The outfit she picks is just like mine, only in purple. I help her with her buttons and even kiss her neck like she did for me. Her smile is big and we get our purses ready for us to leave. Gum, condoms, money, I.D., and a few sanitary wipes for in case we need to clean up any blood or other fluids. Oh yeah, also, some tampons, just in case.

â�œLetâ�™s go, Nikkaâ�, Tai orders impatiently.

Killer Dolls: Chapter 1

â�¦THE MEETING

When I start dancing, a surge of power rushes through my body and I feel high. I live for nights like this. Nights when the club is packed with celebrities and other big spenders. Tonight though, is special. Tonight my favorite band is here and I am ecstatic. The two men that I desire above all else are actually here, within my lustful reach. All I have left to do is seduce them into picking my best friend and I as â�œspecialâ� dancers for tonight.

A â�œspecialâ� dancer is one who also will be leaving the club for the night or even more, with whomever chooses her. Tai and I adore Slipknot and The Murderdolls. If we get lucky enough to be chosen, even if only for tonight, it would be a dream come true.

â�œOh my God. Nikka, theyâ�™re headed our way.â� Tai whispers as she and I grind sensuously on each other.

I look up through heavy lashes and see that Tai is right. Oh God. Joey and Corey are right in front of the stage that Tai and I are on. However, much to my disappointment, they arenâ�™t watching me at all. Theyâ�™re both staring at the stage across from ours where Keri and Kendra are practically eating each other out for all the perverts in the club. I see Corey point at them and Joey nod with a smile on his angelic face.

â�œSorry, kiddo.â� Tai whispers as our song starts up.

Slipknotâ�™s song â�œBefore I Forgetâ� starts up and we both jump on to the smaller stage that sits in front of the bigger one. As we start to wildly undulate to the pulse pounding music, I forget about Corey and Joey. I forget about all my problems and just dance with my best friend/room mate/ dance partner, Tai.

After the song ends, everything comes rushing back with a vengeance. I smile wanely at Tai as we collect our money from both stages and exit the stage area. As we sit in the large dressing room for us girls, we start making our plans for tonight after work is over with.

â�œSo, movies?â� Tai suggests.

â�œYes! I love movies! Horror?â� an unfamiliar voice says in a falsetto tone.

My brow furrows, which causes my eyebrow ring to move. She and I look at each other before turning to face the intruder. My eyes go wide and Taiâ�™s jaw drops in shock. Wednesday 13 and Eric Griffin are standing in the doorway with weird smiles on their faces.

â�œOnly us girls are allowed back here, sirs.â� I say in a choked voice as I try not to giggle at the look on Taiâ�™s face at their arrival.

â�œWe are girls, thank you very much! I have the dress to prove it.â� Wednesday says in a fake posh British accent.

â�œWednesday, you are nuts. Come on, we found a pair of hotties for us.â� Joey Jordison says as he enters the room.

â�œNO! Wednesday and I have found these lovely two ladies all on our own! Weâ�™re going to the movies with them, so meh!â� Eric tells him with a small childish act at the end of his words.

Eric pokes his tongue out at Joey and both Tai and I laugh. Joeyâ�™s head turns toward us and his eyes sweep up and down my nearly naked body. His blue eyes come to rest on my pierced nipples and he grins. My heart literally skips a beat at that.

â�œThese two are hot, but the ones Corey and I have are bi-sexual and will fuck us all, as well as each other for our pleasure for $1,000â� Joey says with a perverted smile and my heart drops at his callous words.

Wednesday and Ericâ�™s faces light up and they follow Joey out of the room without a backward glance at Tai and I. My heart breaks at the sad look on Taiâ�™s face that I know mirrors mine perfectly.

â�œHorror movies are all thatâ�™s being played at the Grande Theater. We can go there, then to Vincenteâ�™s for dinner. First though, we need to go home and shower. Iâ�™ll go tell Louie that weâ�™re leaving. You find our clothes, so we can put â�˜em on and get home, k?â� I say and Tai nods and starts trying to find all our stuff.

On the way to Louieâ�™s office, I pass by the guys of Slipknot and Murderdolls. Keri and Kendra both stop me to hug me as they say goodnight. I hug them back, but ignore Eric as he says something to me. As I walk into Louieâ�™s office, I see that Corey and Joey are already in there and talking to him.

â�œAh! Nikka. Come here a minute, girl.â� Louie greets me and I grin and rush at him for my nightly hug.

â�œLouie!â� I shriek as he smacks my ass at the end of the hug.

â�œHave you two met lovely Nikka yet? She and Tai are my best girlsâ� Louie boasts and my grin fades away as Joey shrugs indifferently.

â�œIâ�™ve not met them formally, but they overlooked Tai and myself for Keri and Kendra. Anyways, the reason Iâ�™m interrupting is that Tai and I are leaving now and Caren and Michelle are up on our stage right now. So, I came to tell you we were leaving, so you wouldnâ�™t worry like you always do.â� I say in a rush without glancing at the other two men in the room even once.

â�œWe didnâ�™t overlook you. Itâ�™s just they caught our eye first. Maybe some other time, weâ�™ll take you two, but not this time.â� Corey says with a smile.

I ignore him and continue to chat with Louie for a few minutes more before giving him a peck on the cheek and one last hug. I turn on my heel and leave without another word to the occupants of the room. I smile kindly at Keri and Kendra, knowing they know how pissed I am at them over this. They donâ�™t even know who theyâ�™re leaving with, which makes me even madder. I grit my teeth together as I pass Eric and the others.

â�œStop a second, will you? Iâ�™m sorry that me and Wedders gave you and your friend false hope. We really do want to take you two as well, but we canâ�™t. Itâ�™s not our turn to pick, but Joey and Coreyâ�™s. Sorry, okay?â� Eric chatters at me in apology.

â�œWhatever. Now, let me pass or I break your noseâ� I say as sweetly as I can.

I hear the others gasp and Eric is quick to let go of my arm. I walk away quickly and run back into the back room. When I get there, I see Tai is already dressed and my clothes are ready for me to slip into. Her dress is red and down to her knees. I, as the sluttier one, have the same dress, but cut up to where it barely covers my decency.

â�œShall we?â� I say as I hold my hand out.

She pulls her purse over her shoulders and I do the same before we link hands and skip out of the room. As we are leaving the club, we bump into the boys who ruined our night. Joey grins at me and comes toward us, but we dart away and to our bike. Yes, we ride a motorcycle to work. A Harley Davidson, to be exact. We lift the seat and pop our money filled purses into it before locking the seat back into place.

â�œWhoa! We were wondering whose killer bike that was. Canâ�™t believe two chicks ride it! Thatâ�™s fucking hot!â� Acey exclaims as he and the others come toward us.

â�œYeah, we ride it. Speaking of, itâ�™s my turn to be in the bitch seatâ� Tai says with a weird, scrunched up look on her face.

â�œHa! Youâ�™re my bitch, bitch!â� I exclaim happily.

â�œWait a minute. So, are you two pissed at us, or not? Cuz, youâ�™re confusing me.â� Joey admits.

â�œWe could care less right now. Weâ�™re dirty, sweaty and hungry. Not to mention the fact that weâ�™re still sober at 11:00 at night. Such shame I feel right now.â� I say and shake my head in mock sadness.

â�œSorry, boys. We need to go and get ready for our kind of fun. Ooh, before I forgetâ� Tai says with a thoughtful look as she jumps off of the bike and runs to where Eric and Wednesday are.

She jumps onto them both in a small tackle. As she deeply kisses Eric, I watch Wednesday try to struggle out of her tight grip on his red and black dreads. She pulls away from Eric and then kisses Wednesday just as wildly as she had Eric. I laugh at the others watching on in confusion.

â�œIs that how you feel about me?â� Corey asks in awe of Taiâ�™s forwardness.

I nod, but then shake my head no.

â�œWell? Which is it?â� Corey asks.

â�œBoth you, and Joey have my attention. But, unlike Tai, Iâ�™m not that affectionateâ� I say sarcastically as she comes back to me, wiping her smeared lipstick off with the back of her hand.

â�œSo?â� I ask with a wink as I start the bike up.

â�œEricâ�™s the better kisser, but Wednesday is definitely no slouch, himself.â� Tai screams over the rev of the engine.

â�œCool. Say bye-byeâ� I yell as I start to back the bike up.

â�œBYE-BYE!â� Tai shouts as we speed off from the club at 60 mph.

Gates Of My Soul

Johnnyâ�™s Storyâ�¦

If someone had told me when I was growing up with Brian Haner Jr., that we would end up a coupleâ�¦I would have punched them for sure! If they had added the weird fact of vampirism into it, I would have then laughed at them. Funny how things work out though. Not only are Brian and I vampires, but weâ�™re in love on top of that.

To be honest, Iâ�™ve always had a bit of a crush on him. Hell, I was drunk when we first met and tried to kiss him because of how pretty he was. He, of course, not only pushed me away, but knocked me out, he hit me so hard. When I woke up the next morning, I got the shock of my life.

I was not only in a bed, but I was only in my boxer shorts. Thatâ�™s not what made me scream and lock myself in the bathroom though. The fact that the pretty boy from the party last night, who hit me, was completely naked (I looked under the sheet to be sure of it, too) and was snuggled up against me did that!

I donâ�™t know what happened that night, and Bri swore he didnâ�™t, either. So, I chalked it away in my memories as a freaky incident and left it at that. Of course, since I drink a lot, we ended up waking up like that, together, quite a lot, somehow. I still believe that it was Zacky and Jimmy putting us together like that after we had already passed out for the night, but had no proof at the time.

I knew it wasnâ�™t Matt doing it, since I learned the hard way that he and Brian were â�œtogetherâ� and that Val and Michelle knew about it, but didnâ�™t mind. By hard way, I mean I walked in on them one day when I noticed that they were both absent from school.

Normally, everyone skipped together or not at all, so I was worried. I went to Mattâ�™s house first, but it was empty. I went to Brianâ�™s and saw both of their cars were in the drive, so I made my way inside and up the stairs. Ignoring the weird squeaks and grunts, I quietly pushed open Brianâ�™s bedroom door and got the shock of my life.

Brian and Matt were both naked as the day they were born. Brian was kneeling on all fours in the middle of the bed and was gripping the sheets and biting the corner of a pillow as Matt humped his backside. It wasnâ�™t until I saw the lube on the nightstand that I looked closer at what was happening in front of me. Matt wasnâ�™t just humping Brianâ�™s backside, but as I looked closer I saw that his penis was disappearing and then appearing again, in Brianâ�™s ass!

I choked on my own spit at what I realized as I watched in fascination as manly Matt Sanders had his way with the very feminine guy I had a man crush on. I guess Matt heard the noise, because he stopped what he was doing and this caused Brian to open his beautiful chocolate brown eyes again. When they looked at me, I saw nothing but pleasure from what Matt and he had been doing and anger at me for interrupting.

Thatâ�™s when I figured it out, you could say. Brian didnâ�™t like me like I liked him, and he never would, either.

â�œSorry,â� I had said before running out of the room and down the stairs.

As I fled the house, I could hear Matt yelling at me to wait, but I ignored it. I ran down the street as fast as I could and didnâ�™t look back. When I got home, my mom was there and she hugged me close to her as I cried. She knew about how I felt, even though I never did until that moment.

That night, both Matt and Brian bombarded me with phone calls, but I had my mom say I wasnâ�™t home until I just went to bed. Hell, even Jimmy got into the action at 3 A.M. and called me. When I answered the phone though; Jimmyâ�™s voice was replaced by Brianâ�™s. I just grumbled incoherently and hung up before unplugging my phone.

That next day at school was sheer hell for me. Brian and Matt would not leave me alone about what I had walked in on. They wanted to â�œtalkâ�, they said. Yeah, right. After I assured them that I wouldnâ�™t tell anyone what I saw, they couldnâ�™t get away from me fast enough. The rest of that week, we just avoided each other.

I even stopped going to their band practices, I just couldnâ�™t take it. By the time things mellowed out, it was almost the end of the school year. Also, their bassist had left the band after seeing Zacky and Jimmy fucking in Zackyâ�™s car. Guess he didnâ�™t like it or some shit like that.

A week after school let out for the summer, all of the guys were at my door every morning to hang out like we used to do. Matt and Brian were always all couple like with each other unless I was around, I soon found out from Zacky. Playing Truth or Dare was no longer awkward for me by that time, so whenever I got dared to do something outrageous, I would.

Hell, one night one of the dares snagged me a hot girlfriend. Her name was Cassy and she was one fine piece of ass. Not too bright, but she had one hell of a set of tits. Big and firm Dâ�™s, they were. I loved holding onto them while fucking her doggie style.

Brian hated her for some reason. I didnâ�™t care though. He wasnâ�™t the one getting fucked senseless by her, I was, so he could fuck off, for all I cared. I even got into a fist fight with Matt over it one day. Brian had called her a name, I canâ�™t even recall what it was, but at the time, it was enough to set me off. I had shoved him and told him to shut up. He shoved me back and said some more shit, so I had decked him. Matt laid me out for that.

â�œWhat? Youâ�™re such a little bitch that you need your boy toy to fight your fucking battles? Fucking faggot!â� I had screamed before stomping off into the night.

I regretted the words as soon as they left me. The look of pure agony in Brianâ�™s eyes at my words cut me deep. I didnâ�™t go home that night. Instead, I slept under the pier at the beach. When I got home that afternoon, I got a hell of a surprise. All of the guys were in my house, doing a varying number of things as my mother paced back and forth across the floor, with the phone pressed to her ear. As soon as I closed the door behind me, I was on the floor as four bodies tackled me.

Seems they were not only sorry for what had happened the night before, but were worried since I had never stayed out all night by myself before. Brian hugged me longer than the rest, something I know Matt noticed. When Brian finally let go, I saw that he had tears in his eyes and pouring down his face. He sobbed into Mattâ�™s chest as they left, which confused me to no end.

Zacky had smacked me upside the head while Jimmy just hugged me. That night, I got into a big fight with some guy when I found Cassy fucking him in her bed when I went over to see her. I got arrested after I beat the shit of him, and hauled to jail. Knowing my mom was at work, I used my one call, to call Brianâ�™s house. Not for him though.

Brianâ�™s dad came to bail me out, and lo and behold, brought Bri with him. I rode in the back with Brian. I wanted to sit in the front, but Brianâ�™s step mom, Suzy got it first. The entire ride was silent, as I did my best to ignore Brianâ�™s chatter. When we pulled in front of their house and into the driveway, I was confused.

â�œYouâ�™re staying the night, Johnny. Dad and Suzy are going out for the night, so we can just hang out in my roomâ� Brian had said with a small smile.

â�œYay,â� I had replied sarcastically, knowing this was going to be a shitty night all together.

He knew what I was thinking, I suppose, because his smile faded.

â�œSorry. Iâ�™ll try to find something fun for us to do.â� he said as we sat down on his bed, five minutes after his dad and stepmother left.

â�œCan we just not? Okay? Weâ�™re not friends, Brian. We never have been, not really. Youâ�™re friends with the guys because of the band and you dating Matt. Weâ�™ve only hung out when itâ�™s everyone. And Iâ�™ll be honest. I used to have the biggest crush on you for the longest time. It wasnâ�™t until that day when I walked in on you and Matt that I realized that I fucking love you! I canâ�™t be here right now. Iâ�™m going home,â� I shudder as I get up to leave after my words, only to be shoved back down on the bed by a very angry Brian.

â�œWait just one god damned minute! What the fuck are you talking about? Of course weâ�™re friends. I like you, man. I do, but just as a friend. Iâ�™m sorry, but Iâ�™m going to be honest here. Youâ�™re simply not my type. Iâ�™m 100% gay. Youâ�™re just bi-sexual, like Matt is. I like big, domineering men, and youâ�™re not like that at all. Youâ�™re soft and sweet. A little too crazy at times, as well. Also, you seem so damn desperate for attention of any kind that it just turns me off. Iâ�™m sorry if Iâ�™m hurting your feelings.â� Brian admits loudly.

Wow. He sure knows how to tear someone down, thatâ�™s for sure. I feel my throat close up at his harsh words and tears prickle my eyes as I push him away and run from the room. I know heâ�™s running after me by the sound of his feet behind me, but as I fling open the front door, I bump into what makes Brian slow downâ�¦Matt.

Matt tries to grab my arm, but I dodge away and continue running. Instead of going home though; I run back to the beach. Back to the pier. Once there, I collapse on the sand as hot tears run unchecked down my baby face. Desperate. I never knew I was thought of like that by him. God, I bet theyâ�™ve all been laughing at me behind my back all this time! What a fucking joke I am. All this time, I thought I really had friends who cared about me. What a lie though. They were only nice so they could get close to me. So they could get dirt on me, to use against me, to hurt me like Brian just did. And Matt showing up when he did, just proves it.

That night, I called my mom and said all I had to say on the subject of Zacky, Jimmy, Matt and Brian. I told her I was staying out for the night at the beach, but to never let them know about it. I slept on the beach that night, and just chilled at home the next day. For the rest of the summer, I avoided the guys like a plague. I made new friends and even got a new girlfriend.

Her name was Kailie and she was as smart as she was pretty and sweet. She was a gentle soul who adored me as much as I adored her. Whenever we went out and ran into the guys, I would see sadness in their eyes as I purposely ignored them. Sadness that they couldnâ�™t hurt me anymore, I had thought. Never knowing that I was the one hurting them.

Not until their senior year, and my junior one, did I find out the truth of it all. By then, I was a member of their band. I was Johnny Christ in the band, Avenged Sevenfold. Every minute that I wasnâ�™t spending time with my mom or Kailie, I was rocking out with them. We werenâ�™t friends, not by my standards anyways, but we were band mates and that was good enough for me.

â�œI love you, Johnny.â� I heard whispered into my ear.

Over and over, I dream of her. Itâ�™s been two years since Avenged Sevenfold got a record deal. A year since Kailie killed herself after seeing Brian and I drunkenly make out as part of a dare. God. That next morning when I heard choked sobs coming from next to me and looked up to see Brianâ�™s tear soaked face staring back at me, I knew something was up. I had looked around and noticed Kailie wasnâ�™t next to me like she always was. When I got up, I had headed to the bathroom. I had fought Brian and Jimmy off to get there, knowing something was wrong with my girlfriend. What I found broke my heart and shattered my soul.

My lovely girl was sitting in the bathroom, broken like a dropped doll. Her neck was at an odd angle and there was blood all over her from her sliced wrists. She had made sure of her success and not only slit her wrists, but with the last of her strength, had hung herself from the bathroom ceiling as well. I donâ�™t know how long I screamed as I held her cold body against my own warm one. I donâ�™t know how anything happened for weeks after that, I was so broken by what she had done. By what I had made her do. Night after night, I played the shows without a hitch. As soon as I was back on the bus, I would go straight to my cold bunk and hold her pillow as I cried.

My drinking got heavier and I even started taking pills at night to sleep. I couldnâ�™t look at another girl and became snappy whenever groupies wouldnâ�™t take â�˜noâ�™ for an answer. A secret I still hold close to me is that I even killed one of them one night on accident. She had called Kailie a skank and said she was better off dead, since she never deserved me in the first place. I had snapped and beaten her until she was nothing more than a pile of skin and blood. She was dead on the scene, so I left her there and walked away after wiping away all traces of my ever even being near there in the first place.

Whenever one of the guys would try to touch me in any way, like a hug or a slap on the back, I would move away before contact I was made. Especially Brian. He had become very touchy feely lately, and I couldnâ�™t stand him. It made me sick to see the deception in his eyes as he kissed Matt, but would watch me. How fucking dare he behave that way?! He had the love of someone very much alive, unlike me. How could he act as if it didnâ�™t matter to him?!

â�œI love you, Johnny. Come to meâ� I heard every night in my drunken slumber.

Finally, I could take it no longer, and tried to do just that. I failed though, thanks to Brian. He had cut me down before I could more than choke a bit. After cutting me down, he had shaken me silly before kissing me stupid. I was gob smacked at his behavior. Even more so, when he told me he loved me. God, how I had laughed then. The look on his face as I laughed at him, was just awful to behold. He was a mixture of angry, hurt, sad and confused, all at once as I laughed until I cried. As I broke down, he held me close to him, muttering words of comfort and compliance.

When two more strong arms had joined his in holding me, I was even more weirded out. Matt was holding the both of us tightly as I cried and Brian cooed lovingly to me. Bastard. After he had hurt me so badly, Kailie healed me. Now that Kailie broke me, he wanted to fix me?! How could he act that way to me after all I had been going through?

â�œI really do love you, Johnny! Why wonâ�™t you believe me? Why?â� Brian just breaks down with that final â�˜whyâ�™, and I feel sick at the way he does that.

â�œWhat is your problem?! Why are you doing this to me? Itâ�™s been almost four years since I told you I loved you and you crushed me. Now, that Iâ�™m over you and dying inside without my baby, without my Kailie, you fucking do this to me?! How fucked in the head are you, to think that I would ever believe you? Oh my God. Youâ�™re all in on it, arenâ�™t you?â� I ask as I believe the realization that I have hit upon.

â�œIn on what? Johnny, I love you. For real, I really do. God, not a day goes by, that I donâ�™t regret what I said that night. I lied that night, Johnny. Baby, I loved you then and I still love you now! Please believe me. Please.â� Brian drops to his knees in front of me and buries his face in my stomach as he begs for me to believe him.

The sad thing is, I do believe him. In some small way, I do believe he loves me, or at least thinks he does. But, heâ�™s with Matt and even though Kailie is dead, she is far from gone to me. I try to move back and away from Brian, but heâ�™s a lot stronger than me, not to mention bigger as well. So when he stood up with his arms still around me and carried me to the couch, I had no choice but to move with him. When he laid me down on my back and stretched out on top of me, I could do nothing to stop him. After the next thing that happened though, I didnâ�™t want to move away from him anymore.

His mouth was moving against mine. His tongue was sweeping across my upper lip, before biting my lower lip gently. I opened my mouth in a gasp as his hips moved roughly against mine. His tongue pushed into my mouth immediately and I felt my dick get hard at this sudden sexual tension that was all but crackling between us. I moaned loudly as he pulled away from the kiss only to start dropping little aggressive kisses down my face and neck. When he sucked on this one spot of my neck, I whimpered needily as a panicky desire bolted through my veins suddenly.

â�œGoddamn it! I fucking knew it! You are such a fucking slut, Syn!â� Mattâ�™s booming voice broke us apart faster than anything ever could have done before.

Brian hurriedly scrambled off of me and over to the now pacing Matt. I couldnâ�™t hear what they were saying, but didnâ�™t want to move, afraid of what would happen if I caused Mattâ�™s attention to turn on me. I neednâ�™t have worried about that though. Because whatever Brian was whispering to him earned me the most hateful gaze I had ever in my lifetime received.

â�œYou little fucking prick! Iâ�™ve had it with you, Jonathan Seward! You think just because your girlfriend died, that you can act any fucking way you want and get away with it!â� Matt snarls at me as he stomps over to the couch where Brian and I were just making out on and hauls me up to my feet and nose to nose with him by the front of my shirt.

What the hell did Brian tell him? My question was answered as Matt suddenly pushed me into the wall and punched me in the nutsâ�¦hard!

â�œKeep your nasty little hands off of Brian! He is with me, not you. He will never love you like he does me. Get it, yet? He has never liked you and he still doesnâ�™t, and never will! We can easily replace you if need be, Johnny. Just remember that the next time you start trying to force yourself on someone who doesnâ�™t like you, who has someone like me protecting them. Because, friend or not, Iâ�™ll throw you out of this band and out of our lives, so fast, your head will spin if you ever try something like that again!â� he snarls at me and my heart drops out of my chest at his harsh words and hateful look as he leads an open mouthed Brian out of the bus and away from me.

I knew it. I just fucking knew it was all a game to Brian. Things were finally starting to settle down, so he caused some drama. He turned Matt and the others against me once again. Itâ�™s official. I hate Brian Elwin Haner Jr.

After that, I never once spoke another kind word to Brian. No matter how hard he tried to apologize or explain why he had done or said what he did, I remained stoic. In interviews, I was friendly to him like everything was fine, but I didnâ�™t mean it, and I think he knew it, too. Matt had also tried countless times to tell me he was sorry for his cruel words, but I brushed him off, saying it was fine. He hurt me, I wonâ�™t lie, but there was no need to let him know that.

Brian had become Syn to me. Syn was a man whore and an asshole, no two ways about it. He cheated on Matt with groupies, both male and female. I know Matt knew, but he let Syn break his heart again and again. Finally, Val came on to tour with us and Matt left Syn behind as him and Val got closer and closer until they became a coupleâ�¦for real, this time. Hell, Matt even gave me his total permission to have at Syn if I still wanted him. I saw Synâ�™s face when I said I didnâ�™t want him anymore and hadnâ�™t since high school, not really, anyways. He even cried at my callousness, the pussy.

â�œWhy are you treating Brian so badly, man? Heâ�™s single and you are, too. Go for it, Johnny. I honestly believe he really does love you enough to stay faithful to youâ� Matt encourages me daily to do something, anything to brighten Synâ�™s sad mood.

â�œI hate Syn. Brian is a myth, someone I never got to know. Syn is what Iâ�™ve seen since the first night I met him. I once loved the myth, but seeing as I need reality, not fantasy, Iâ�™m over it. He doesnâ�™t love me anyways. He only loves himself, music and whores like himâ� I snarl and smile as Brian collapses on to Zackyâ�™s shoulder, crying his little black heart out.

Did I feel bad for hurting him? Yes, I did. And in the coming months, my guilt would get harder and harder to bear as he wasted away from late nights filled with hard partying. Drinks, drugs and sex filled his spare time, as worrying and fighting filled mine. Finally, it all came to a head one night as Syn came back to the hotel with a little blonde girl on one arm and a big, burly bald and tattooed guy on the other.

â�œHey, Johnny! This is Clive and his girlfriend, Sarah. Weâ�™re gonna be fucking all night, so you may wanna bunk with one of the other guysâ� Syn giggled as the man, Clive licked his neck while watching me speculatively.

I lost it. What little fucking control that I was clinging so desperately to, just up and went out the window. I snarled and grabbed the blonde whore away from him and punched her hard in the face before tossing her out of the still open door. Synâ�™s mouth opened and closed, but there was no sound as Clive tried to do a running tackle, only for me to side step it before slamming the hotel telephone down on to his shiny bald dome of an ugly headâ�¦repeatedly.

Someone grabbed the phone away from me and restrained me as they removed the fucker from Syn and mineâ�™s room. I just fell to my knees and puked. Oh God, what had I just done?! What if I killed the poor guy?

â�œWhat the hell was that, midget? Iâ�™ve never seen you act like that before. Well, not since you killed that groupie last year after she bad mouthed Kailieâ� Jimmy says with an awed whistle punctuating his sentence.

â�œYou saw Johnny do what?!â� Zacky asks incredulously and I look up just as the three collapse on to the couch in shock.

â�œHe killed a groupie who bad mouthed Kailie. Went off on her like he just did with the Mr. Clean looking dude. Beat her to death, literally. It was fucking gruesome, guys. Then after he was calmed down, he licked his knuckles clean of her blood and cleaned the scene upâ� Jimmy tells them with a lot of hand movements.

â�œWow. Just wow, man.â� Syn kept saying over and over as he stared unblinkingly at me for quite some time that night.

Afraid of him hating me, I sat down right on his lap and leaned forward until our foreheads were touching. His eyes widened as I did this, and I waited for him to freak out or something like that. It never happened. Instead, I feel his big arms wrap around me and I relax into his embrace.

â�œSo. Are you gonna kill us now that we know about the dead hooker?â� Jimmy breaks the silence with the dumbest thing ever.

â�œGroupie, not hooker. And no, Iâ�™m notâ� I say.

â�œSame difference when you really think about it. Cool. So? Are you two gonna fuck after we leave or what? Because if you are, I need to know, so I can put my earplugs in!â� Zacky chortles as Jimmy announces his plans for the night.

â�œNo, weâ�™re notâ� I say firmly as Syn stares at me with his deep chocolate eyes.

â�œWhy not? Do you still hate me?â� he asks with a tone of hurt in his voice.

â�œIâ�™m not in a very good mood right now, and might hurt you if we have sex. I donâ�™t hate you, not right now, at least.â� I watch as his sad look disappears and that sexy little smirk of his appears.

â�œBaby, if you want to fuck me so hard, I bleed, you can. But, not tonight. Tonight, I just want to hold you close to me. I wanna kiss you, yes. But, first, I need to go to the bathroom and jerk off.â� Says Brian with a leer.

â�œWhat the hell is wrong with you? How can you still have a hard on after all of this?â� Jimmy asks incredulously.

â�œJohnny just fought for me. Seeing him so primal drives me nuts, you guys. I canâ�™t help it, it turned me onâ� Brian lays it down so well that I feel in awe of his weirdness all of a sudden.

â�œSo, am I domineering enough for you now? Because if so, why donâ�™t I help you with your little problem?â� I smirk as I reach down in between us and grab Brianâ�™s cock, squeezing it slightly.

That was the start of the sexual part of my life with Brian. Sometimes, weâ�™d have a wild night of making out. Other nights were filled with hand jobs or blow jobs. We havenâ�™t actually made love yet, since Iâ�™m not ready to have his dick up my ass just yet. And obviously, he isnâ�™t ready for mine in his ass either, since he never offers it up.

â�œWhen are you two gonna do it, already? All I ever hear is him whining about how horny he is! Iâ�™m really getting sick and fucking tired of it, dude!â� Matt explodes at me one night after our show as we sit backstage, waiting for the shower to open up.

Clenching my jaw, I stand up and march over to where Syn and Zacky are wrestling. As I reach them, they stand up. I grab Synâ�™s hand and lead him over to the couch. I shove him over the armrest of the couch and start unbuckling his three belts. As I get them undone, I work the button free from the hole. Yanking the zipper down, I almost fall down as Syn starts to struggle against me.

â�œStop it or wait a whole week before we do anything even the slightest bit sexual. Take your pickâ� I order and am happy when he stops his movement immediately.

I slip his pants down quickly, taking his black and purple boxers with them. I hurriedly yank my own pants down and pull the lube out of my pant pocket before kicking my pants and boxers away completely. Spreading the banana flavored lube on three of the fingers of my right hand, I hand the tube off to Jimmy who is standing next to us and watching intently as I open Synâ�™s ass cheeks with one hand and use the other to open and stretch his tight little asshole.

â�œJust fuck me already! Stop teasing!â� Syn whines as I continue to push and scissor my fingers inside of his anal cavity.

If thatâ�™s what he really wantsâ�¦so be it!

I pull my fingers out of him and use the excess on my throbbing erection, coating it liberally. I line the head of my cock up with his tight entrance and thrust. As I slide in, Brian shrieks and his body tenses, causing his ass to clench tightly around me, making me moan as I come to a standstill and stop all movement to give him the needed time to adjust. To help him relax, I reach around and start to stroke his velvety cock as he starts to moan and buck his hips into my hand.

â�œOh my fucking God, Johnny! Uh, this feels so good. Donâ�™t stop, baby.â� Syn begs as I stop moving.

Fixing my position, my next thrust makes him shriek like a banshee and he throws his head back as I growl and thrust harder and harder into his spot as he continues to moan like a whore.

â�œYou like this, slut? You like having little old Johnny boy fucking you in your less than tight ass?â� I start talking filthy to him, since I know he likes it and watch as his cum spurts out of his dick without me even touching it once.

â�œY-Yes, I love it. Mmm, yeah. Fuck me like that, baby. Ugh, fuck my slut ass until I see stars. Iâ�™m yours, Johnny. Iâ�™m. Oh my God, Iâ�™m going to c-cum again!â� Brian screams as he climaxes one more time before I let myself go and fill him to the brim with my hot, thick whitish gray cum.

I slump against his back tiredly, leaning my body into his as my cheek presses against his sweaty back. I was in and out of it as I felt someone pull me away from Brian and clean me up. I yawn before sleeping, cuddling against whoever it was in my bunk with me.

When I woke up the next morning, chaos ruled the bus. Mattâ�™s stuff was gone as well as Matt. No one, not even Val, knew where he went. We were worried, but a phone call assured us that he was okay, but for two weeks, he was gone. During that two weeks, things between Brian and I were stiff and uncomfortable for some reason. It seemed that no matter what I did, Brian was always mad at me. When the two weeks was over and Matt came back, everything was messy and unpleasant.

Brian was all happy and shit again, but it hurt me because he went back to spending more of his time with either Matt or Zacky, but ignoring me for the most part unless he was horny. I also noticed things that really seemed off to me. One such thing was Brianâ�™s increased drug use. He went from snorting coke every now and again, to doing it almost every night before a show. During those times, I would have to either vie for his attention or have Jimmy keep him away from me depending on how he acted.

The night when they raped me thoughâ�¦thatâ�™s what really changed it all. He was beyond gone and kept pawing at me. Trying to fight him off was bad enough, but then he called out for help. Matt came in and held me down on my stomach while Brian took me again and again. They both ignored me as I screamed, cried and pleaded for them to stop hurting me.

When Brianâ�™s dick was finally limp, he pulled out. I thought I was off the hook, but was proven wrong when he and Matt traded places and at the moment when Matt thrust into me, I learned the reason why Val walks funny after fucking Matt. He is fucking huge! Just as Brian did, he did it until he was soft and could barely move anymore. After pulling out, I was then forced to watch as they made out heavily with each other before leaving me face down in my own vomit and tears.

When Val and Michelle walked in later on that night, I was still where they left me, since every time I moved; I started to bleed from my ass a lot. They had taken one look at me and screamed for Jimmy to call an ambulance right away. I spent almost two weeks in the hospital in the I. C. U.

I had to lay on my stomach that entire time, since they had caused extensive rectal damage that was only fixable after I had a small operation where the doctors had to manually suture me on the inside of my rectum, the damage was so severe. Both Brian and Matt were barred from visitation, Jimmyâ�™s orders. The one time that Brian managed to sneak into my room, I screamed so loud that Zacky swears he could hear me five floors down in the cafeteria. He was swiftly booted from the room as I swallowed my pride and bawled like a baby as Val patted my back.

When I got out of the hospital, I ended my relationship with Brian. He and I were band mates and maybe one day we would be friends again, but never again would I trust him to love me or take care of me. He had proven just how untrustworthy he was, or so was my opinion at the time. No matter how much he cried or begged; I refused to take him back. He became angry and violent quite a few times, but I stayed steadfast in my refusal and stuck to my guns.

He got together with Michelle. I wonâ�™t lie, I was hurt about it, but it was his own damn fault. I got together with a pretty brunette girl named Lacey. It was like a game, it seemed to me at times. Whenever the band went out as a whole, it became a contest between Brian and I to see who was willing to go the furthest with their girl in front of everyone. It killed him to touch and kiss her in front of me. I know it for sure, because what was in my own eyes was always mirrored in his when we did this.

It finally came to a stop though. I found myself being strangled as Lacey sat on top of me with her hands around my throat. I had come home drunk with hickeys, bite marks and bruises all over my body from a harsh session of fucking with Brian in his house. She was furious. Without giving me a chance to explain myself, she had launched herself at me. When she had tackled me, we went through the glass coffee table in the living room.

I was just lying there in the broken glass, being strangled and trying to keep her from stabbing me to death with a very large hunk of glass when the front door flew inward from a powerful kick aimed at it by M. Shadowsâ�™ tiny girlfriend, Val. I had no time to be surprised though, as she came hurtling into the house and grabbed Laceyâ�™s hand. I winced as I hear bones snapping as Val twisted her hand and yanked her away from my prone, bleeding and barely breathing form.

Val once again took me to the hospital. This time though, Brian was allowed back there with me as they bandaged me up. I wasnâ�™t going to press charges against Lacey, until I heard from the cops who showed up to take my statement; that she was going to try and get Val arrested for breaking her hand and collarbone. I ended up pressing charges as well as filing a restraining order against the crazy bitch. She still followed me around for almost a year as Brian and I became a couple again, she steadily faded away from us. Finally, she stopped coming around altogether.

Now, Brian and I are not completely faithful to each other. He cheatsâ�¦a lot. It hurts, but I canâ�™t make him stop, so I allow it as long as he never brings them around me. As vampires, we have a higher libido. I just donâ�™t satisfy him, I guess. No matter though. Jimmy and Matt are more than willing for me to join in when they need a third. Hell, sometimes even they have me as a fourth with Zacky or Leana as the third.

He knows about it, as he has seen me riding Mattâ�™s cock with Jimmyâ�™s cock down my throat and mine in Zackyâ�™s mouth. He threw a fucking fit! Yet, when I catch him fucking his food night after night, he blows it off as no big deal. I guess to him, I just donâ�™t matter. That makes me almost sorry that Iâ�™ve stayed with him as long as I have. Hell, even Gena is gone now. She died a very bad death when she tried to kill Leana in her sleep. Luckily, the stake missed Leanaâ�™s heart.

This is all I really can say on the subject, for nowâ�¦

-Johnny Christ